I know God hears my prayers. I have a private struggle I'm suffering from. Just my own doing, but I'm asking for God's help. Just keep me in your prayers guys and gals please

I don't know how to surrender it all to Him. The time ticks on and I'm still Here waiting and toiling and striving I dont know how to stop. I gave up somewhere in the last three years more than once and I am stuck wondering what now, do I start all over? I'm not getting any answers from God anymore that I can recognize anyway.

Pray for me please.. to receive a word from the Lord personal and intentional that isn't ambiguous with no room for doubt as to where it came from concerning the desires of my heart and my doubts and bitterness and sadness. Pray that he gives me a break from my fears and worries. Some light for my darkness. Healing from my lack of confidence and poisoned thoughts about myself.. a reason to keep moving forward and not regretting my existence anymore. Thank you kindly