My husband left me when things got difficult in our lives and I had some major health issues come up that required my needing (and telling him so) for first time ever in our 18 years of being together. Two weeks after leaving me he moved in with another woman after just one night of "being" with her and has been with her ever since. Telling her lie on top of lie. My children have buried the pain for 2 years and acted like they didn't want anything to do with him and every time he did not show up for their events, did not call, did not come to their birthday or even bother to call them on their birthday acted as if they did not care, now the pent up anger etc. has built up to a head and it is being taken out on me where they are cursing at me, disobeying my rules, arguing with me over everything and now blaming me that their dad is gone. All this on top of battling the surgeries/recoveries etc. it just feels too much. Though I hear it said over and over the lord does not give us more than we can we can handle and knows all. I have for sometime now had it rolling around in my head of how would be the easiest least painful way to end my life this pain and no longer have to deal with any of it any longer. Please pray that my children come through this season of our lives healed and no longer hurting, please pray that these thoughts be taken from me and I also be healed. Well, this saga continues as my husband who has been estranged from us for the last 2 years father, my children's grandfather, just had triple by pass surgery and at same time my husbands cousin, one of his 3 musketeers went home to our lord at the young age 39 July 9th without life/burial insurance. Now my husband called me to let me know what all had happened, since then I have been with the family and him (until Friday) now the woman he is living with not once been out there or doing a thing to help in any way, you'd think would show this man who truly loves him and who doesn't however, right now it has yet to sink in. He is still so angry over the hard time and how mean I was being 3 years ago in our marriage when I had lost my grandad, got cancer diagnosis, was constantly in pain trying to take care of our home 3 children (1 of whom is on autism spectrum) all on top of just everyday stressers. He posed a question to me that I was treating him like dirt(true) was he suppose to have just stayed, I had said yes. As my husband he was he should have weathered that storm until we got through it to better days. Please join your prays with mine that if it is the lords will for my marriage to be redeemed and family reconciled that he will heal my husband of this anger and help him to see his way out of the darkness he is currently in. As well as for my children & I to heal so to find a place of solace and peace.
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